Mistake..

I think I made a mistake...yet again..every weekend, the feeling will surface..yet again..

Education

I had just spoken to my sister while we were watching Transformers at home. the first version.

Recently, I watched this movie about Americans who were denied health care by their insurance coverage and most of the patients died because of insurance policy just simply telling them that its experimental.

I felt the same way today, I do not know why today, but I just felt it today and thinking through the number of students I denied them from getting educations. But this education is not simply the vernicular education, but its the specialize course that I am conducting in this institution.

My story started off with this student who was in my class for over a year and due to unforeseen circumstances, I denied him from furthering his education due to some his personal attributes which I got confused overtime. All of us know that this particular student possesses certain characteristic which makes him special among his classmates.

We know this, and we tried our best to take action so not to make the situation worsen. But eventually, there is nothing much I can do about as I know he could not be save by us anymore. Which the last resort is to have him in into the National Service. I know that is not the only last resort he is going into but we have no choice for him to undergo some training. Its the look in his eyes that he sad that he was very disappointed with himself and he did teared after we lead him out from the office.

I will not be able to reveal further about the exact details of him, but ultimately, I felt that every single paper that I signed for my students to be denied an education, I felt that it makes me feel guilty of not trying my very best to advise and to change their perception as a lecturer.

I just feel sad...