You and I

I get to understand you better as a person. Which I believed that both of us had really talk things out face to face. Honestly, I like who you are and I hope that we could be together someday which only both of us will know if it will be soon enough.

For the past 15 days, we had spend the time together which I really wished that I could spend more than what I had just did which due to our position that does not permit us to be as close as possible. Missing the days when each night you will be at my hotel doorstep to wish me good night.

I hope you feel the same way of what I am feeling right now. Holding on to your hand everynight seems to be like the blanket that keeps us warm through out the night. And the pat on the cheek is just like forever...

Darl, I do cherish all the moments that we spend. Esp the bus ride up the mountain. The ups and downs that we had, the smile that both of draws on each others face and the frustration that both of us endure.

Missing you each moment...

Mistake..

I think I made a mistake...yet again..every weekend, the feeling will surface..yet again..

Education

I had just spoken to my sister while we were watching Transformers at home. the first version.

Recently, I watched this movie about Americans who were denied health care by their insurance coverage and most of the patients died because of insurance policy just simply telling them that its experimental.

I felt the same way today, I do not know why today, but I just felt it today and thinking through the number of students I denied them from getting educations. But this education is not simply the vernicular education, but its the specialize course that I am conducting in this institution.

My story started off with this student who was in my class for over a year and due to unforeseen circumstances, I denied him from furthering his education due to some his personal attributes which I got confused overtime. All of us know that this particular student possesses certain characteristic which makes him special among his classmates.

We know this, and we tried our best to take action so not to make the situation worsen. But eventually, there is nothing much I can do about as I know he could not be save by us anymore. Which the last resort is to have him in into the National Service. I know that is not the only last resort he is going into but we have no choice for him to undergo some training. Its the look in his eyes that he sad that he was very disappointed with himself and he did teared after we lead him out from the office.

I will not be able to reveal further about the exact details of him, but ultimately, I felt that every single paper that I signed for my students to be denied an education, I felt that it makes me feel guilty of not trying my very best to advise and to change their perception as a lecturer.

I just feel sad...

Communication

Do you think we need to communicate more? There are broken linkages...

As I knew..it wouldnt last as long as I had expected. But I hope things will get better and also I really wish that you could stay by my side..

Travelling..

Do you want to go travelling with me? I am thinking of a good vacation...with our private jet..to our private island that no one knows...

January to May

January to May has been a rather dramatic part of my life and I would say that everything fell in place just at right time with only a few conflicting time period. Let me just summarize it all below:

1) January - Chinese new year at home.. annual affair..Assigned with 6modules for my this term module.

2) February - Decided to undergo dental surgery and to have braces on. Was assigned an oversea assignment. To go to China in March.

3) March - Undergo dental surgery..extracted 6 tooth over two hrs surgery. Went to China with my colleague for some site recce. But most importantly this month, I have someone beside me who was there for me most of the time when I need most.

4) April - My first braces in 30mins for the next 3yrs of my life. Million dollar smile on the way. Went for certification as a FirstAider, attended teaching pedagogy..yawnz..Get to know new colleagues and they are so nice people. She is still with me..making sure I am alright at any point of time.

5) May - 6 modules examination almost made me died on the spot. Got my upgraded braces with more implanted metal plates and biting plate for my teeth reallignment. Finally my mum agreed to purchase a new house for my sister and I. High motivation..and my supervisor..I will be getting a promotion soon.. cant wait for all these by the end of this year.

6) June - China..here I come with my darling..To China with Love..

Things I am looking forward for this year.

1) My realligned teeth

2) An apartment

3) My promotion

Its a volatile first quarter..and hope things will turn out good at the end of this year and to bring me forward for the next.

ultimately..thanks for everything that you have supported me so far. and I am glad that you are there for me when I need you most. :)